Sunday, March 30, 2008

When you look me in the eyes.

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

And yes, you know, when you try so hard to evade, it'll always end up smacking right infront of your face, as if saying "HAHA! you're trying to avoid me!? dream on!" It happens at the place that no one will ever think of, or at least I won't. It happens abruptly, and never goes away. It somehow just leaves a trace in your mind, and the worst thing, unknowingly. Gets rather creepy at times I guess.

You get irritated when you can't seem to get it off your shoulder. Roll your eyes, curse and swear, hoping that it'll leave your mind, and your ears as quick as possible because you can't guarantee what will happen if it lingers around you for the next few minutes. Who knows? You might just explode on nothing, getting all the weird stares from people you've never met in your entire life and worse, rude comments. You feel that no matter how much you try to evade, it's still gonna follow you no matter where you go because apparently most places have reception, and they switch that damn thing called radio, on. And the sudden thought of holding on to your handphone, which coincidentally has reception too, disgusts the hell out of you. Everything seems to be going against you. Everything. You think to yourself, Is God making fun of me right now? When it's definitely not the time to think about other stuff? No idea. No one will answer because no one knows. And after getting irritated for the slightest reason within that few seconds, you subconsciously start humming to that song.

That hell-brought song that brought hell to you, that you were trying hard to avoid.

YOU end up singing it, together with that damned radio, which was apparently playing it loud and clear all over the supermarket.

WTF.

Thank you very much for tainting my JC memories.

Monday, March 24, 2008

i don't like schooooool.

You know, the number of times I'm blogging, in general is like my eating spree, okay fine, the way I'm binging on foood. :( i eat like alot for a moment, then the next minute, I'll abstain from it like totally. :S I'm sick. No wonder I'm growing fatter. Anyway.

Miss yeo says that my dream house is very angsty.

Oh yes, I went to some Singapore Island Country Club for my uncle's birthday celebration, at the other end of Singapore and the duration was simply horrendous, due to the fact that my aunt, who was driving at a very fast pace of 40km/h even though there were NO cars infront of her, was busy talking about marriage (shuns), China women and affairs of her friend.

And during the dinner, my mom peeled prawns for me and my aunt was fussing about how girls should peel the prawns for the guys and all the other traditional stuff. Then she asked what do I do to the prawns when I'm outside with my friends. It's either my friends peel for me, or i order without prawns, or i just peeeel, if im feeling cool on that day. YALA LIKE WHAT DIFF DOES IT MAKES? THE PRAWN STILL DIES AND GOES INTO ONE OF OUR STOMACHS WHAT.

i want to buy pen(s), stationeries in general. By doing that, it makes me feel better. Way Way better.

ok, i need to colour and drink water.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Art is a good way of de-stressing

Let me show you all my dream house.
Close-up
Remember those days?
When we were young,
We used to pick up anything
We could find and
draw on anything we saw?

And whenever we were told to draw,
I always drew my dream house,
or a garden,
with bees and butterflies.
I'd pay attention to the details on the wings,
and made sure their bodies are properly segmented,
and coloured them in the most brightest colour
I can get within my reach.


My house would always look like this,
brightly coloured,
sun,
birds,
double-storey,
trees, with apples
sometimes, with fence,
a pathway,
a chimney,
(where I'd hope for Santa to come down with presents).

No neighbours,
no lifts,
no nothing that could make me pissed.

Do you remember?
Those days?
When we were young
and innocent,
happy and excited,
and we
know nuts about the world.
The education system which made
every student wanting to prison-break,
The studying life with
no social life,
The working life with
no dating life.
The IT life with
no outdoor life.

The life, that
didn't really seem like a Life.

Do you remember the days
when we were young and innocent?

I do.



this looks like a poem, but it's NOT. im just bored.

Oh, want to meet moi new friends? I show you their pictures. (:

(:

what, i'm just expanding my social circle.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

i'll live for myself

I really really hate it when I have to decide on certain stuff.
I hate it when people go, "hey nette, choose between school and rugby." it's like wtf. As much as my heart would be telling to go for rugby (like duhxs), I know the correct and ideal choice would be school. I hate this kind of dingdong, because I ALWAYS have to choose reality over passion. It's always like that.

Touch Rug camp please don't come.

And before I forget, i do not have a habit of letting go. i do not have a habit of letting friends go away from me. NO, I'm not trying to be a oh-so-loyal friend, but c'mon, even animals don't do that. Don't people know what the fuck is 'emotional attachment?' and if you shitheads think that i fell in love, you are a piece of shallowminded piece of frizzy hair. ah, fuck this.

-and as usual, i'll have no clue what am i blabbering about again-

& fuck CT. what's the point of studying? fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

My hair is begging to be cut.
I'm rather keen on being the short hair girl in the team.
I'm rather keen on being the Sec 4 moi, where junhong thinks i have no gender from the way i behave.
I'm rather keen to try out the renewal process deb was talking about.
I'm rather keen on having selective memory loss, so i can forget certain people and events in my entire life because such stuff only make me depress and they somehow take up alot of space in limited storage capacity brain.

However, I'm not keen on having chewy, wife and husband to assasinate me if i cut moi hair.

Don't worry, just in case you shallow minded people think that I fell out of love and broke my fragile and vulnerable heart into millions of pieces because of a stupid guy, and I'm gonna be a lesbian, That's very "good" analysis. please excuse me while i run out screaming.(HAHHA)

like duh, no! CAN'T GIRLS HAVE SHORT HAIR?! WTF.

I'm feeling very explosive right now. No, I'm not turning lesbian. Gerard Way, Harry Judd, Dougie Poynter, Joe Jonas & Keanu Reeves are still my loves. and yes, they are guys. -sighs. shallow.

the next post would be stuff I need/want to do to improve my kanasai grades. because i need to fucking live for myself.

kanasai.

i love you, not you, but you lah. yala. NO, not you! you!!. walao! YOU!!! NOT YOUU!!! -random......

Monday, March 17, 2008

_|_

I'm feeling quite horrible right now. :(

Due to mood, I've been putting off my Dad's Bday card and Art aside because I need MOOD to do all those. & Dad's Bday is like... tmr? WOW.

1st day of term 2 sucks. Bad start = Bad term. Everybody's pmsing, especially teachers.

I agree with Zhirong, "It was great not seeing the class for a week."

correction: It was FABULOUS. (but to those whom i met during the 1 week, be it camps or by chance, i like you all)

Sometimes, I wish that my touch teammates were my classmates instead. So that every PE, we can play touch instead of toopid badminton or probably even soccer. I'm so sorry to break the news to you but I can't really handle round balls. I like kana. Yes. kana. I would love to run with them too, because we seriously do it together. key word: together.

Have a nice day.

because I didn't had mine.

Friday, March 14, 2008

this is MY goal





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&im kinda looking forward to see weiwei&JIAYU&SYL(slightly later) AT NUS FASS SOCIOLOGY & NUS TOUCH!!! (:

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

everything's gonna be alright.

& i hurt myself again, physically and literally.

yes, AGAIN :( it was rather unintentionally intentional. and it's all for slyvia (yes, slyvia, not sylvia for now), she wanted to learn how to dive so as to not throw face during the j1's training. and so, the entire human race was there to dive with her.

k la, not the entire, but it's vic, brig, jiayu, sw, val and moi. and the people that dived were brig (her and her classic old school side ways dive which is like damn sexaye stylo mylo), vic (her and her confirm-try dive) and moi, yours truly (me and my tuapehkong dive which i didn't get to display just now) .

had some abrasions at the first dive, which was rather bad. i seriously think that our school field is in a very very bad condition, can YOU do something about it? how about this, the school's intending to change the field to the synthetic kind.

SYNTHETIC FIELD = NO TUAPEHKONG DIVES or SEXAYE STYLO MYLO DIVES cos you'll get abrasions. as much as the whole team's usually laughing at how injury-prone i can get at times and they're suggesting that i should buy the whole suit, like the diving (literally, the into the sea kind) type, together with the flippers.... so as to prevent me from limping around and getting screwed by my mom for getting injured almost every week. and if there are wounds, she'll talk about the scars and how ugly it'll look like.. blahblahblah... actually, i do care la. considering the fact that i always go to the pharmacy and check out for stocks for Merderma, as reccomended by super stylo mylo sexaye coach, which is suppose to help heal scars. but the auntie apparently introduced me to more stuff, such as anti freckles cream, sunblock with extra UV protection and some weird cream to apply on my white spots. although i know i'll never use them, i still have this funny feeling to buy them all. (yeah right, and store them in the cupboard, so when it's spring cleaning, i'll have something to throw..)

OBV i won't! although i can't guarantee that it won't end up coming to my house because my mom is a potential cream-napper (in the legal way, which means she pays, like duh) for me. but most probably, it won't. i just have to get the time to freaking get my merderma. MERDERMA, YOU ARE THE ONE.

thank god the wound's a small one. ((: so it isn't that bad.

anyway, i've a fetish for dettol, like seriously. i like the smell. and the fact that when you add water to the washing detergent kind of dettol (the brown brown one), it'll turn milky white. HEEHEEHEE. i think ima potential chem student. anything but the mole concept. MOLE..

MOLEY MOLEY MOLE.

im tired. and i want to get a new pair of havaianas cos the old pair brings back too much painful memories of a certain someone...

im kidding big time LAH. HAHAHA. i want the slippers kind. the one i currently have is the sandal type. I LOVE BOTH THOUGH. (: but slippers would be more appropriate to wear if i wanna go like downstairs to buy lollipops or hairbands.

but my sandals are hot okay.

OKAY BYE. I WANNA SLEEPXSXXS/

Monday, March 10, 2008

the abandonment of everything

& jayem and i did not stay over due to very personal reasons such as piano exams and family gathering. :( i wished i did. then i can witness the aftermath of the raping session of CS by melvin.

no, i wouldn't want to see CS in such a state. i mean, it's melvin leh. CS, the poor child. :(

and so, i've seen the beam of light of my art coursework. there's direction now so i'm not that lost. heeheehaahaahoohoo. charcoal portraits!

im having a verbal session with stefan lai because he claims that i'm always so mean to him on msn as i reply one liners like "okay" " hahaha". when his is like "W" "H" "Y". so pardon me if i somehow get too agitated while typing because, seriously, i need alot of focus to him right now.

currently, im losing. because i decided to compromise and type longer sentence but he feels that it is not sincere enough. and therefore, he is being fussy.

i'm gonna murder people very soon thank you very much. on the other hand, i can train my stamina with him. HAHAHAHA.

back to life, i think that jayem plays the piano well and so gonna score for tmr's exam :D yay yay. and our romantic piano practising cum teaching was utterly romantic. guan huai fang shi huh? hahaha! jagungy!

i can't wait for eevrything to be over-test and exams. i can then get back my sleeping life and social life. and that's also when, deborah and I will elope. from everything. i said she can row the canoe, but she says it'll be too heavy, and we'll probably be too concentrated on doing other things. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

and guess what! i can't wait for thursday. relive holiday moments :D

people should be true. :(

i'm having art camp now.. :( i'm at school, blogging art-ing, i mean.

apparently, i couldnt think of anything to depict the final piece of my artwork - Empty. I mean, literally, it should be empty, it's about emptiness what. so, empty lor. I was telling CS about it and all he did was just to let out breaths of laughter, sound-less. :(

as much as i am pretty much inspiried to do video art, i realise that i'm rather idiot when it comes to that. therefore, i shall not be stupid at the expense of my gradeeeeeees.

any ideas? ms yeo has forsaken me. and the connection is slow to the extent of me being able to sing finish one song, and then the page will load.

i feel like changing theme. probably like facade. like being fake and untrue to oneself. but i don't really know how to portray it lahxzsxzsxz. this makes me stress. its worst than common test. ARGH. & im hungry.

on a lighter note, my beloved fossil watch has arrived. yipeedopeedooo! :D

my art how? :( HOW LA:(

im so tired. the weather's so nice to sleep in.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

I just want you to know, that i've been fighting to let you go.

I feel so weird. Because, this is like one of the rare days where I don't have to mug like siao or do homework. Such freedom is rather weird. And why am I blogging like this? SZB

OKAY. yah yah yah. no homework and books to mug. im freaking happpy :D been meddling with the html of sr's touch blog together with vic. it's fineee now! i never knew i had the ability to talk to computers. smart lynette *taps on own shoulder. :D

mummy's coming back todayyyyyy!! government's back. i like. ((: i know, i shouldnt be this happy since there will be someone controlling some of my actions. but it's better than none, after living with it for like 17+ years, it's rather weird without it, since my dad isn't really into my affairs. all he bothers is whether have i switch off the toilet lights - literally. but it's ok. I LIKE IT TOO :D

i think i pulled my neck muscle when the angmoh girl pushed my head onto the ground yestd. :( damn painful whenever i turn to the left.

did i mention that i'm seriously very very very motivated to study very hard for exams? cos i can't wait to get out of school and get to nus. LIKE REALLY lah. get over the whole freaking education.

(: oh yes.



hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
ehhhhhhhhh check out our touch blog. www.srtouchrug.blogspot.com
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
LOL
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
i know
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
mei mei mei lin
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
tol dme
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
OK
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
hhahahahahahah
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
i wantd to leave smth there
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
but felt kind awkard
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
haha
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
then then then?
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
all girls -.-
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
huh why not
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
wont die right
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
ah yah
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
i tink i gonna pu t my name MARY
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
LOL
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
you're part of our jie mei touch rug clan
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
HUH?
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
MARY
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
W
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
T
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
H
hold on tight, it's a rollercoaster ride says:
HAHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
wat jie mei?
AHHHHHHHHHHH... says:
don scare me

EDDY MARY IS DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHA

ok bye. i need to clean my room. it's like as if a tornado just swept pass through.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

it's a rollercoaster ride, where touch rugby is what i see when im on height(:

3rd among the 13 JAYSEES. or is it 14 JAYSEES? i don't know. but 3rd is good enough, for now, to satisfy myself and the team, although we are rather demanding, at times lahh. yay, another chance to get medals.

and so, we scored the stylo mylo sexaye try IN THEIR FACES twice!!!! vic and weewee are the ones. :D subway-ed! YAY.

once bitten, twice shy, third we score tries. (:

i'm burnt. super burnt. check it out.





me & my stupid face. grace burst out laughing at the last picture. HAHAHA! & one of the rare moments!!! :D very rare okay. i was simply too tired already. i need sleeeep

and thanks for coming down william, arif, nathaniel(although it wasnt for us but you know who, i'll still count you in), ryan, bryan and freddy (: appreciate it loads. saw us in our ups and downs ehhhhh? HAHA.

today's juls last tournament with us. :( im so gonna miss my partner la.

im a happy and an emotional kid cos im hungry now.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Tonight at noon
Supermarkets will advertise 3p extra on everything
Tonight at noon
Children from happy families will be sent to live in a home
Elephants will tell each other human jokes
America will declare peace on Russia
World War I generals will sell poppies on the street on November 11th
The first daffodils of autumn will appear
When the leaves fall upwards to the trees

Tonight at noon
Pigeons will hunt cats through city backyards
Hitler will tell us to fight on the beaches and on the landing fields
A tunnel full of water will be built under Liverpool
Pigs will be sighted flying in formation over Woolton
And Nelson will not only get his eye back but his arm as well
White Americans will demonstrate for equal rights
In front of the Black house
And the monster has just created Dr. Frankenstein

Girls in bikinis are moonbathing
Folksongs are being sung by real folk
Art galleries are closed to people over 21
Poets get their poems in the Top 20
There's jobs for everybody and nobody wants them
In back alleys everywhere teenage lovers are kissing in broad daylight
In forgotten graveyards everywhere the dead will quietly bury the living
and
You will tell me you love me
Tonight at noon
~Adrian Henri
i am going to kill you,
with my eyelashes,
and put you in my truck boot,
and drag you all the way to north pole,
let the polar bears sit on you,
and fart in your face,
then i'll bring you back to my home,
take care of you,
and make sure you'll be okay.
i'll feed you with some of my famous
maggie mee with noodles,
and ask my mom to cook extra share
so that i can feed you
with
my fingernail.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

-insert word- COMMON TEST IS OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D

*throws confetti all over the world*

*screams like a mad prawn*

IT'S FREAKING OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!! I CANT BELIEVE IT, THIS FREAKING TORTURE IS OVER. (for now..)

IM FREAKING HAPPPPPY.

*jumps off the building*

Sunday, March 02, 2008

So I pray…
Joy To the World
Peace for every boy and girl
Hope when life is hard
Light when
everything seems dark



i know You'll guide me through all this shit. i know You will. i know You will, even though i was never there.

Saturday, March 01, 2008



HAHAHAHAHAHHA. THIS MTV/SONG MAKES ME LAUGH.

ART BE-GONE


for art has so many categories, i've decided to create a category called: the non-quality aspect of art, which is, by the way, the 2nd picture

as you can see, i'm getting irritated with art. HAHA. i drew the 2nd picture with the image of a certain teacher in mind. *coughs* or probably, what her attitude reflects of her in my perspective. chio right. i know thanks.

the 1st picture isn't completed at the point of of time when it was taken. but it is completed now! i'll take a pic of it someday cos it's in schoooool.

other than studies, (i think i've got the momentum), i think i've shown the materialistic side of me last night :O all your fault.

okay. bye. having constipation recently :S